What the junk 2012?!
It’s only a month and a half in and already this year is off to an insane start. Yes, a lot happened in 2011, but damn, didn’t expect the momentum to carry this well into the new year. Wait, that’s a lie, yeah I did. In fact, I was hoping for it. But so far, it’s not exactly the best…
So, this year is supposed to be THE year, or at least I’ve always been hoping it to be. Apocalyptic predictions aside, I always promised myself that 27 would be magnificent. Well, this year I’m turning 27, and this year I’d would have to build up to magnificence.
Thus, I decided to restart my training regimen. Those of you who may have seen this blog eons ago might recall my series of exercises. I had trained hard for 45 days alongside Khingz in an effort to improve my conditioning. The plan worked, I slimmed down and I was feeling pretty great about myself…until the holidays…
2 years later and I’ve gotten back into it. Starting mid January I’ve been following much the same training regimen as last time. Only this time around, I’ve invested in my own batch of Protein. It’s made a difference. I’m a lot bigger than last time, not sure how I feel about it though, I’ve always been the skinny one. But hey, I figure I’ll hit a peak and past that point it’s refinement.
I do this to sharpen the body, while simultaneously sharpening the mind. While not reading books, I am listening to everyone around me, learning from every experience, trying to gain new perspective on things. So far, based on conversations with friends, the ideas I’ve come up with are in line with many books they keep suggesting I read…guess it can’t be helped.
I’ll look into the books suggested, after all “a sound soul dwells within a sound mind, and a sound body.” This year will be magnificent, I’ve promised myself. At least that’s what I hoped…external forces have tested that desire.
Work continues to be an interesting experience. I’m in a field I’ve always been curious about, but never really explored. I’m now at a help desk, troubleshooting software for customers. While very fun, it’s also amazingly frustrating, well some customers anyway. It’s made me realize that it’s really no longer ok to not know how to use a computer, or the internet, or a phone anymore…but that’s why I’m there, to help those in need, and can afford it…
I have to wake up for work at 4:30 every day, which means I get out of bed at 4:50 every day, to be at work at 6:00…well more like 6:12…in any case, it’s early, which is painful. But I’ve got to do it. It pays the bills, and helps me to continue helping my niece in her time of need, plus I’m off early so I can see her. But more on that subject shortly because, speaking of family, some close members of my family just moved away!
Remember Niks from those exercise posts? No? She has her own blog too, you should check it out. In any case, she had come to the realization that life in this town just wasn’t cutting it anymore. She’s been here her whole life and she desperately needed a change, and life threw her just the right opportunity at just the right time. So what did she do? What everyone needs to do, she seized it and ran with it.
More power to her! She’s moved far away, to a place she’s never been to, surrounded by folks who love and care for her who also up and moved. She’s starting a new chapter in her life and knows it will be difficult, but she’s done it anyway. It’s inspiring really. Plus, she’s not alone, she brought her daughter Papaya with her.
An amazing little girl who holds the world in the palm of her hand, a revolutionary of the future who will grow up in a place with the capacity to nurture her growth. Granted, this city would have suited just fine, but, her mom didn’t want her to be stifled by the same energies which tent to stifle everyone here. And I agree.
The only thing though, is that the universe will always need a balance. And where there’s the amazing growth potential and amazing energy where Niks and her daughter are concerned, an astounding toll has been taken on JB, the father.
JB is another amazing individual you can see his blog on the side, shetpancit, he has to be to have joined with Niks to bring Papaya into this world. In addition, he’s given full consent for Niks to bring Papaya with her, knowing full well that it will be an unforgettable part of her life. However, he is still human, and not being able to be with his daughter, if only for a short time, is undeniably difficult.
I consider JB a brother, I’ve got his back and continually offer support, something our mutual management at work does not offer. They’re being jerks at the matter, going through the motions of granting him time off, but griping every step of the way. It makes no sense to me, and pisses me off every step of the way.
But enough about work. Back to the family subject, remember how I mentioned my niece? Well, this little girl, the daughter of Papa Danger, whom we call Baby Danger, is the most phenomenal person I know.
Why? Because she’s 4, and she’s been battle the hell out of cancer for the last year. She shows no sign of quitting too. She’s been through the worst, most painful chemo treatments and yet she still outpaces healthy kids. When her bones hurt from the cancer cells, what does she do? She goes for a walk, so she can go to the play room and start dancing.
There’s no quit in this girl. But the crazy part is the fact she’s battling a part of herself. And thus she’s fighting something nearly as strong as she is, something which much to our horror and dismay, keeps coming back. Like, what the fuck. Seriously, fuck cancer. It needs to leave our lives now, having well overstayed its welcome. Baby Danger isn’t quitting, so it’s up to cancer to throw in the towel.
I have no doubt in my mind that baby Danger will make a full and complete recovery. And once she does, and her full powers are unleashed, the world will shake, the heavens will roar and all will know what true might is.
After all, this girl is already magnificent.
….ps, FUCK CANCER!